Avoidance

Have you ever confronted a situation just to avoid it? Well I have. I think that is just the person that I am, or was, or became, I am really not sure. I had a situation that was weighing very hard on my heart, and praying just wasn’t cutting it this time. I decided to confront it, which in ambers world, it means I text it lol. So the burden has been somewhat lifted and now I find myself avoiding the topic that I confronted the person with. I had lunch today with the person that hurt me and acted as if nothing was wrong. Is there something wrong with me? It was a big thing, not that she was talking about me behind my back or anything, BIG! Am I naive to think everything will just go back to normal? Do I want it too?
I have been through lots of stages of emotion in he past 10 days, and I don’t think I have really broke yet. Am I going to break? Are my kids going to see me break? God I hope not. I have a great friend and someone else that I can talk to about the situation but I still feel so alone and feel like there is something wrong with me that I can’t get what I need from talking to my two peeps. Yea I know, you are probley thinking, duh you have a husband, or talk to god about it, but neither of those are working this time. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh my mind is just going crazy.