confusion

I don’t know how to get through the pain. I am trying! I have An hour of joy and happiness, and then 20 minutes of complete sadness. At least the good is out waying the bad, but it’s still hard. It seems like everyday something. We comes out or I remember something that I didn’t want to remember then all the hurt comes back. Not just my heart hurting, or being sad, but physical hurt. My chest gets tight, my arms get shaky, and I get sick like I need to vomit, I do most of the time. Sorry of that was tmi but it is what it is. I will give you a backlog of my Last year soon, but for now, I am going to go back to sleep, well try!